So, it’s been a while since I written anything here. The past month or so i’ve had little desire to do anything but the things on the ‘need to’ list, and at times, those things have been a struggle too. But that’s okay, that’s life.
Usually this time of year, i’m focussed on my goals for the coming year and I feel energised and ready to tackle them. This year, i’ve mainly wished for an extra month between December and January so that I have more time to prepare.
At the beginning of December, something happened that made feel really upset. It was stupid. Through tears, I told myself how ridiculous it was to feel so sad about such a meaningless thing. It made me feel way more worthless than it should have and actually, in a way, i’m really glad that it happened.
It made me step back and reevaluate.
Luckily, at around the same time, I went to Sweden to stay with my friend Rania, which gave me all I needed to do that.
I spent a week at her home, surrounded by beautiful snowy landscapes. It was a welcome escape from my usual routine and the usual distractions. Even though I wouldn’t give it up for anything, being self-employed can be lonely.
I don’t have loads of work friends and colleagues and the ones I do have, I don’t see often. I don’t live in a city. I don’t live very near anyone who has the same work, lifestyle, interests or passions as me. My friend’s are all, for the most part, employed, working in non-digital roles and we are all quite different when it comes to our hobbies.
This is why I am so grateful for the people i’ve met through blogging.
Although I had read her blogs before walking Olavsleden, I actually met Rania for the first time when me and Angeliqa wandered through Matfors and she had offered to walk with us and have us stay at her house (it was lovely to see a bit of the trail again in the snow!).
Rania does very similar work to me (she’s an amazing photographer, blogger and travel writer) and we both live a similar freelance, work from home lifestyle and share many similar interests (photography, nature, slow-living and the outdoors). Being able to spend a week working next to her, learning from each other and bouncing ideas around left me feeling incredibly inspired and gave me some much needed clarity. I’ve felt a huge shift in mindset.
When I got home, I decided to push everything unnecessary to one side and focus on enjoying the holidays and decluttering my life and my mind. The past few weeks, I’ve been turning my house upside down, clearing out anything that doesn’t bring me joy, isn’t useful, doesn’t help me achieve my goals or live my best life. Minimalism is something that has long been calling to me and I finally did something about it. I’ve still got a long way to go, but I already feel so much better. Tidy house (and tidy external hard drive!) = tidy mind.
So, now that everything has calmed down, I feel ready to think about 2018.